wow. i haven`t updated in here forever. um... ok before i start writing.. you should probably know this lately i have been feeling really crappy cause my life sucks and i havee
not been happyy for about.. what.. 3 monthhs. basicallly all of summer
cause nothing ever seems to go right. and i just want to like escape this
world. everything is a mess.. no one just seemss to care about me. i`m
not askin for your pity cause i realy don`t care if ya give it to me or not
but i think you should know incase you were wondering why.. um yea now on a happier note ocean city maryland was amazing. the beach was beautiful. and the air and water were so unbelievably warm. it felt like swimming in a pool. and the sand bars were really high so you could go out really deep. AND the waves were amazing. they were absolutly humongous. it was the best week we`ve ever had in alll the three years we have been down. everything was perfect. then i went to wildwood. ohhhh those wildwood days. it was really really hot there. but it was fun. i did the morys pier amusement parks. they wree awesome. i think i like the second pier the best. me and car did the boardwalk every night. we only went to the beach twice. but i didnt really like the beach at all. the water and air were cold. and there was SOOO much seaweed. and there were a bunch of crabs and things. but i loved loved loved the boardwalk. and all the guys we meet on it  haha. and i did a lot of great shopping. including hot sunglasses! between those two weeks at the beach. i got a great tan. haha. i love being tan. well compared to everyone else im still a whity. but i like pretending i look just as tan as everyone else =) the show the wizard of oz show went amazingly. i though overall the first night was better than the second night. but for me it was the other way around. i kinda screwed up on one of the dances during the second night. woops. oh well.. a show isnt a show untl you make a mistake. the cast party was interesting. the beginning of it was really fun. and then i dont want to say it got boring.. cause it didnt.. but it just kinda slowed down. it was still fun tho. and i found out that one of those big flowers that the munchins put on the front of the stage blocked my ruby slippers under the hosue. so the audience couldnt see them. i dont know why someone didnt say something earlier. but maybe at the time of rehersal it was slightly of to the side. i was just kinda really sad about that. but whats done is done. braces during the play they hurt a little. but i was so focused on the play most of the time, that i didnt even remember i had them. after about a weeek i couldnt even feel my braces which i was excited about. um so yeah.. im at a good place with them now. and i took my first picture with them =)... well no. not my first. but the first one i showed to the public. its on myspace. you should comment it. haha but.. yeah yesterday i went to lexis bat mitzvah. it was absolutly amazing. it was at the four seasons hotel!!!!!!! and it looked sooooo expensive. they had picture thingys, and DDRs, and body//face painting people. and all of that was just in the room for audervs. that wasnt even the party room! in the party room there was a big band that played a lot of old and recent hits and the whole places was covered in like these beautiful tall pink flowers. and each table had a more flowers and there was a disco ball on each tabel. and big bowls of m&ms and chocolate covered pretzles. and there were little bowls of gummy bears on each place and they have you twizer things that light up when you grabbed a gummy and it lit the gummy up. it was sooo cool. and the dance floor was huge. and i a lot of my hebrew school friends were there.. but also denise and tessa were there cause they are friends with lexi (they go to her school). so i hung out with tessa like the whole night. AND THEN I MET THIS KID =) his name was ryan and he was sooooo hot. he had a round face. pretty blue eyes. straight blonde skater hair. i cant remember his height.. but he is either my height or a little taller. and we slow danced. and then he ask for my numba. and i got his. ahhhh he is so hot. if anyone knows colin quin.. he kinda looks like him but hotter. haha. so ive been happy for two days. i hope it lasts.
i wrote a poem about it. ummm yeah here it is:
andd sometimes there are
those few moments where
i think that maybe my life
isn`t so bad. but that will
end soon.. it always does
yeah. i love the happy ending. but
thats just how i feel about all this.. right now i am happy tho. for once | 
and i get spacers on monday. people said that they really REALLY hurt 
but im just going to pretent i never heard any of that. 
i am going on vacation soon 
so i prolly wont be updating until after that. i am first going to OC Maryland for a week with the family, and then i am staying with carly the next week in Wildwood New Jersey. 
YAY two weeks of vacation. unfortuinitly tho, i am gonna be missing cheerleading camp. i was looking forward to it all summer but i found on i am in maryland that week 
) and i am the Winkie (the blue things that protect the witch in her castel.. not flying monkeys) General///Commander. (i get four lines after the witch is melted that like are talking to dorthey saying "you killed her." "all hale queen dorthey" and stuff) um. yeah basically consortuim is soo much fun and its like the highlight of every day cause yeah its just that fun =). 